you know its paper-writing time when i have to make a run to coborns to buy a four-pack of frappachinos and a box of cookies.

watching 'white oleander.' i think i might be angsting.

later on i'm seeing becky. im nervous about it. i've been hostile with her every time i've seen her lately so i just quit calling her, for almost a week now. she doesn't need my hostility or my mixed messages. i don't want to cuddle. i don't want to make out. i dont want to watch movies and have to open the window when she needs a cigarette. i don't want to have to make small talk while avoiding talking about my feelings.

"you've got nothing to lose but visa card, happy meal and kotex with wings." rena, white oleander.

it wouldn't be bad to sell clothes at flea markets for a living. i could do that.

so i'm watching a revenge movie with becky tonight. revenge for when i made her watch 'may,' because becky likes fucked up, or so i thought. it turns out she only likes fucked up when it comes to anime.

why doesnt anybody like dark the way i do?

so now shes going to make me watch something happy. damn her.

ha. halfreck from buffy is in this movie. jackie and i freaked out when we saw that in the theater.

i miss her.

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